Voices of Angel’s Heart

Couldnt believe wat happen recently….hard to accept wat had happen…its so suddenly…never think this will happen to my frens…i received this sad news….she passed away in accident….why? she is so young…so pretty n a nice girl….why she had to leave tis world so early….i couldnt accept it…its been very long time since i last seen her…we had promise to hang out after come out frm ns…n tis never happen n wont happen again…i miss u my fren…i remember we were in the same group n change to another group together….its fate that brought us togeher n we becum best fren in the camp…alwiz accompany each other….i remember chit chat wit her at nite when others had sleep….nice to talk to her….this few days the memory keep pass by my brain…i still feel that she is alive….only that we din c each other….but i knw i have to accept this oso…i reli hope she will be happy in another heaven..having a new life that she dreamt of….

i will alwiz remember u n we r best fren forever!

miss u….

Just passed my 20^th birthday not long ago…haha…feeling a bit weird because I had entered into the digit ‘2’ world….Actually this complex feeling had started to happen early in the year…the time had passed rapidly…I really miss those life when I am stil in the school days..life is simple yet happy…now I can feel that a sudden growth in myself…makes me feel that I must made many decision in my life n shall be responsible of those consequences….haha…ermm…bout my birthday celebration, well tis year is a superb 1…..nice……I had my 1^st celebration as early as 8 April….Just an outing with classmates and doesn’t think that they wil bring in surprise….really have to thank SL,my best buddy who plan the surprise….u r such a nice fren…wil cherish our friendship!! My 1^st birthday cake, a tiramisu is on that day……the 2^nd cake, a black forest, from a fren that sacrifice the time to bake for me…thx a lot…nice cake…haha…my 3^rd cake, a cheesecake from my very best fren…thx a lot for celebrating birthday wit me and bringing me to such a nice place to celebrate….i appreciate it….well, there is stil the 4^th cake which is celebrated with my lovely family….my mum, my sis n my birthday is near to each other…so, we celebrated together by having a dinner together in victoria station….Having a great moment wit my family…^^…….wonder how I manage to clear up those cakes….we share with neighbours…its good for sharing isn’t it…hehe…and present…the most special n unforgettable present is from my best fren huey n her bf….guess wat…she give me a box contained packets of oldtown white coffee, which is my love n a coffee bean’s cup…haha….really unexpected and feel so happy when received the present….and not to forget the missy donut…I like it so much..yumm…yummm….thx ya!! I also receive a nice big bear from my houemates..hehe…thx so much…and a milk bottle from Janice..haha..stay cute~……I really appreciate all the things that my friends n family give to me on my birthday! Muackssss…….

And not to forget those sweet wishes from my frens through text msgs, phone call and those sending comment to me in friendster…..haha…thx for al the wishes…..

A very happy 20^th birthday to me! ^^

Well, where should I begin to write…another unhappy blog…haha..is it I get used to write sad things or there wil alwiz be sad things happen in my life….hmm…juz feel that my life has been cursed…I couldnt get those happiness last for a long time….happiness do happen to me but it juz wouldn’t last long…sometimes when there is something that makes me happy and makes my life worthwhile, there wil be a scary feeling that fill my heart…I really scared that this feeling wil fade away soon…and everytimes it also happen…sometimes I really couldn’t take it…it hurts deeply…I become very cautious of those happy things that happen to me…I couldn’t guess what might happen the next day…I wil alwiz remind myself not to truly enjoy those happiness…but everytime I juz forget about everything when I m happy…that is why I alwiz get the biggest disappointment because I hope too much…I believe too much…I believe that my life has turn to be better…how silly..haha..when wil it stop? when can I find out those life I have been dreaming of n wishing to have…. Why is this happen to me….i reli don have the answer…I want to get out from the cursed…sigh…

Since when I couldn’t really communicate well with my frens?

Since when we become like a stranger to each other?

Since when there is a gap between us?

Since when there is a wall that block the communication between us?

Have I change or have u all change?

Am I walk too slow or have u all walk too fast?

Can we change the pace??

No….I cant change my pace, so do all of u..

I miss the moment we hang out together…

Those laughter and joy…

those sad n happy moment…

But i knew its not gonna happen again…

There will alwiz be a missing person in the groups…

everyone have their own life to go….own way to grow…

I do not blame anyone….

Just write out my feeling….

I know that there has been a change…

That would surely couldn’t change back to previous…

But i would surely appreciate and treasure those memory we had…

Good luck to all my frens…

Hope i wil find my way of life….

So moody when write this blog…feel so tired, angry n sad…Feel that fren is unimportant anymore…..rubbish….well…I think its very true that frens is unimportant once they have bf or gf……perhaps I should get myself 1 but I juz cant find one…I m a loser, admit it…Wish that I can depend on myself in doing everything but I cant afford to…wish that I could own a car so that I wont look stupid to ask for help….Thats only a blank wish of course….oh god…I reli have a complicated feel now…..bored of this realistic world…..

          Our planet is called Earth.There are countless human being living in it.It is quite a magic world when we come to think about this: Everybody has the different physical look! Wow~~! Its so unbelievable that there are so many types of eyes,nose,mouth,shape of faces can be combine to make every human being different from each other~ Will there be two same ppl live in this world? I am not sure about it….But its hard to find. Well, if there is 2 person who look alike, we also wouldn’t know…The world is so so so big. Its only 0.0000001% to meet a person who look alike with us. This isn’t a big deal anyway. I believe that there will be a similar heart for the same group of ppl. This similar heart help us to find the other part of our life to make it complete. Some who are lucky enough had found the other similar heart. While many more are still keep on finding…just like me…haha….Do not give up to find a friend for ur heart. Don’t let the heart to be lonely. This is what I always remind myself and also a motivation in my life…I don like n scare of the loneliness feeling…Sometimes the heart will get tired of finding. But do not give up! When will I found a friend for my heart? I dunno…but I wish that I can found it soon….

Jia you~!^^ hehe………

Recently went through lots of ups and downs…some really make me hurt..some make me happy..don wanna think so much d..nobody wil know urself better except urself…we must believe in ourself..don bother wats other think of u as long as u feel that u doesn’t do anything wrong and harm ppl…those fren who wanna find trouble,I don care anymore..wat for to make our life difficult because of a fren like tat? Those ppl wil know their wrong someday……

.ystd went to fren house online..oh my god..dunno who idiot send a link to me tat contain virus..it spread to all the msn frens…feel so sorry to my fren coz she need to format her computer..and those who receive the file from me,I have to say sorry…I really don think its a file contain virus..haiz haiz haiz…wondering whose on earth would be so free to create those virus to harm ppl…they should get punishment!! So angry…

There will be much assignment coming…going to be very busy…the subject would much more difficult…dunno I can do it or not…whatever gambate to me and my other frens..hehe…but I must find some activity to balance up myself so that I wont be too stress on study..hehe…a long way to go…will try my best to overcome whatever obstacle in my life…

Hope to be happy everyday!!^^

Recently,my sky was surrounded with dark clouds…i m so unhappy n lonely sometimes…wondering when wil those dark clouds move away far far from me…sometimes i just wanna stay alone in my own world…coz i find it hard to mix n communicate with human being..m i a weird creature or wat…i would like to online alwiz to chat n surf anythings i like but i cant alwiz do so…i hope there wont be problems that bothering me..so sick of it…i juz wish to live a simple yet happy life..is it too much to ask for?? haiz…

so happy coz finally can settle the problem d..ystd just feeling sucks..feel so down wit my fren problems….feel very sleepy but cant sleep coz got the hard feeling inside my heart..until today at lecture oso think of the problem n the way to solve it…finally solve it at nite..hehe..luckily..if not i oso dunno wat to do d…hope my fren wil gambate!!

saw big surprise just now…haha…never thought of it..really make my tear wanna cum out..i know its nothing but it means a lot to me…happy that he appreciate it!^^